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hi,honey,how is going?i am just back from home ,for my dentist qualification exmination,the operational part,and i had passed it successfully. I will join the written part in september,hope myself good luck.and give me ur blessing ok?
　　it seems all the things r going smoothly: i will finish my basal classes soon, and i hv adapted to the lab working, work on the germfree platform by myself without colleague’s direction.we will get our new house’s key soon,that means ,after simple decoration,i will hv my own place in peking,full of my happiness and sadness.but i found that i hv lost the ablility of communication with the others.and i kept talking to myself again and again,imaging many cases that had never happened when i was alone. i don’t know why,but i know i am out of order,i can not sleep good in the night,and wake up early in the morning. Another strange thing is that i can not feel the hot weather when everyone complain about the hot day,to be the opposite , i even feel very agreeable under the wildly sunshine after going out the air-conditioned room,every pore is opening and breath freely in the hot air,and a kind of fancy feeling come out from the feet to the head,just like climax.,(PS:i can get the climax by fingering the clit according to what u had told me ,through many times’ failure)
　　i guess i am in a low place in this period,with time flys,everything will be ok.but it is really painful and hard to go through .
　　To be confidence all the time is hard to actualize.
　　do u remember that phd in shanghai i told u,u gave me many test to let me do,but what is disappointed is we lost contact without any reason,he didn’t response to my messages i leaved in the QQ,he didn’t response to my message i sent to his mobile phone,even that, i comforted myself that: he was busy,hv not get so much time online,maybe he was not convinient to response my sms … but one day, i found that his QQ was upgrade,and in this period ,he had changed his individual imformation twice… u know,what dose that mean,he was online in these days,and sure he has reieved the message i leaved,but he don’t want to response…
　　what he told me online was fake! but what innocent i am,i hv no doubt about what he had said…
　　to be honest,we don’t hv deep emotion with eachother,and he will fade away in my life in some time.but what made me puzzled is what ‘s going wrong?
　　and many other things had happened in this period,driven me in a mess.so i asked myself:maybe that was my problem,if i had overrated myself,do i need to reflect on the past?
　　that really made me upset,and beat my confidence seriously!
　　u will laugh at me that i am a silly girl,it is not necessary to think too much about some inessential people and trivial things…
　　i know that,and i found that i am not mature enough like my imagination.
　　honey,ur words can always give energy,i want to recover from that,and to be normal and happy like before!